一個神祕的男人

他是每星期日下午在教堂我遇到的男人. 我不知道他到底是誰, 但由於他獨特的樣子就很喜歡看看他.. 




光頭的. 


每次見到他穿著的T恤都是黑色的. 


身上充滿了紋身, 頸部, 胳臂, 通通有紋身.. 




他的臉讓我想起曾經喜歡過的一個人, 我怎麼不一直盯著他呢.. 
因此, 我記住他了! 但他從來卻不可能身上有紋身..


神秘的男人.. 要是我認識你, 我很好奇的想問你.. 那個在頸部的紋身, 被黥的時不癢癢嗎?

revived

I've changed my mind again!!!! For the ump-teenth times already hahahaha...

I know.. I know.... This time for sure la.

Within these eight months, I didn't know what I had been doing... what I had been thinking.... those were so NOT me! Will blame myself for getting distracted mad easily...

But thanks God, you've sent a person to open my eyes again, to remind me of what I used to dream of..

This time it's confusing, but this is EXACTLY what I want! This is EXACTLY what I'm passionate about!!




God please guide me...
Mother Mary please walk with me..

I'm back catching my old dream~~

Hello, hard work! :))

things to do before 30

Aaaahhh... akhirnya saya bisa bikin target jugaaaakk! Hihihi... jangka pendek sih, makanya isinya banyak senang2nya hehe.. Kalo yang agak serius saya masukin ke target jangka panjang. Tapi, itu rahasia!! :P



1)Master Chinese Language Yeah, sebenernya pengen nambahin Cantonese juga seh, secara logat Canton itu kedengeran lebih seksaayy XD *awww~ Tony Leunggg~ ♥* Tapi berhubung Mandarin aja udah susyah setengah mampus, yah ntar belajar Canton-nya sambil jalan dah. Gaaaaakk, gak pake les huayu kayak dulu lagi, ga ada waktu dan males.. kalo ambil kelas, adanya cuman 簡體字, padahal kan saya mo blajarnya yang 繁體字.. kalo les privat, kurang kompetitif.. Jadi, belajarnya lewat pilem atau streaming HitoFM aja hahaha...

2)Get specialized Sejauh ini masih pilih Perio sih.. Tauk deh kalo ntar2 berubah pikiran lagi. Yessi gitu lohh.. hahaha. Sebenernya kerjaan GP asik juga, cuman ya ingin memuaskan hasrat bersekolah :P

3)Get a diving license Ya ya you may yawn now.. perasaan wish macam ini dah ditulis dari setahun yang lalu tapi gak kesampian juga sampe sekarang haha.. Biarin deh.

4)Participate in The Amazing Race Asia Kalo yang ini, pengen ikut audisi nya taon depan, sebelum masuk program spesialis. Hayukk hayukk... sapa mau jadi partner saya?? *wink wink*


5)Watch a gig Lebih spesifiknya sih pengen liat Lee Hom, tapi ya sementara ini konser siapa aja boleh lah yang penting artisnya saya demen. Slash kemaren terpaksa dilewatin karena ga ada yang mau nemenin :(

6)Solo travelling Destination: overseas, and not in a large group. Soalnya selama ini kalo travelling langsung grudukan minimal 10 orang hahahaa...  Later pengen nyoba sendirian atau bareng 1-2 orang temen aja :)

Udah!!



Lho kok? Cuman 6 doang? Iya lah, daripada banyak2 malah gak kesampaian semua.. Umur saya sekarang kan 24 ya, anggaplah setaon fullfill satu wish gitu deh haha. Semogaaa... semogaaa!! Biasanya semangat di awal doang deh, trus buntut2nya gak fokus lagi haha..

Semoga saya semakin giat menabung... hiks hiks. Gak tergoda belanja-belanji atau sering2 makan enak (baca: mahal)...Siap2 hidup di bawah garis kemakmuran deh.

englightened

There are a lot of things going in my head that I think my head can’t contain em anymore and gonna explode soon. I’m missing my friends! When they’re around, it’s harder to get a headache since I can always easily speak out my feelings, thoughts, and express my emotion. We’re living in the same city, but rarely see each other due to mismatch schedule.. sigh. I’ve been a little depressed recently thanks to, perhaps, some resentful events and bad circumstances I’ve been living (or working) in, desperately gasping for fresh air..

Guess what? Today is like a little bliss.

I enjoy my new work place. I’m not officially in yet, but the athmosphere is very very different. Less people, less problems. Too many (dumb) heads are real disasters. However, it’s only day one, I remember I was pretty passionate when I began working in former place but hatred soon grew after day 3 and already wanted to quit on day 5 lololol… No la. Most of the staffs here are old acquaintances, some even are my classmates and I’ve known them well… Other staffs are so welcoming either that I don’t feel like I’m moving to a new place.. instead, it feels like I’m back to home :D

Other than that, I was delighted to have a little chit chat with Erlin and Nicky just now. Talking to them kinda reminded me of our life in Oral Surgery clinic hehe.. I think the best clinic time I’ve ever had in my BDS life is OMFS haha.. So much tension yet so much fun. Along with Cindy and Kurniawan, we often shared patients and cases, pleaded McDreamy to give us tutorial (hahaha), sneaked out to have lunch, hid together in OR when we’re less energetic to catch up with the requirements… Oh, that time we’re also addicted to OR serials like Grey’s Anatomy etc, but pls be known that McDreamy I refer in this post is definitely not Derek Sheperd yeahh.. hahaha… 

Aaaahhh…. I miss miss miss those moments and McDreamy so baddd!!! Am I like an old granny already, nagging about old times??

But remembering BDS life somehow restores the long-lost passion in work… (wtf I graduated only few months ago!) When I was in school it was so much fun (though miserable, too), but these days in work, it doesn’t feel really fun and kinda boring.. alone..no sharing partners.. I’m so glad those tearful days are over, but I’m longing for the bonds..

deep fried

The weather is freaking weird.. Few days ago it rained so hard that I celebrated we were having rainy season again (I knew it's dumb), but now it's fuckin' hot I feel like somehow the sun is baking/ cooking me?!

Hot weather + PMS = a total hothead and grumpy Yessi! 

To make it worse, I am also suffering from a 4mm ulcer on my left upper lip. It looks very red, inflamed, and is fucking painful.. Oh my, I so need steroid!! I can hardly eat, drink, or even bite my favourite senbei cos it's pricking right into the ulcer..  *tears* Good thing is because this ulcer doesn't let me talk much, thus... however mad I am today, I can't swear cos every time I open my mouth it HURTS so baddd... Nobody gets hurt, at least! So, if you feel I'm ranting a lot in this post, DON'T COMPLAIN!

My dope!! Nothing I crave more than this kind of thirst-quenching liquid, it lifts up my mood though it stings my ulcer (again). Oh crap.

Btw I don't know how to handle tomorrow. I hate my workplace and I've been saying this for 1,463,890 times and was going to submit my resignation last Saturday, but dunno why till today Budi hasn't let me to. "Wait and see," he said.. Wait and see what huh? I don't think I'm mentally capable to work there again.. The schedule is messed up, the boss is pretty messed up too.. To be frank, I'm fed up. Two months is enough.. and enough is enough. I can hardly take orders, esp from a so-called leader like that.. Everything going there is driving me insane!

I'm legal now

The long awaited registration certificate is finally on my hand! I had no idea if we'd also get an ID like this, does it give us any privilleges or better, work as a discount card? xD

Been rolling on my bed since morning. No, I'm not skipping work (like I usually do) but the clinic is taking care of registration of all doctors planning to work 'permanently' there.. Since I have no plan for working there 'permanently', I could take a day off hehe.. It's been only less than two months since I joined them, but now I am thinking about moving out. Of all personal preferences, honestly I prefer workplace that offers me opportunities to develop my skill and knowledge. My current workplace can't offer that but the salary is good.. Such a dilemma cos I also need money to pay for leisure. You know me la, I hate working but love travelling haha.. Mom often suggests me to be more thoughtful about that, but like everyone else, who doesn't love travelling? Plus.. after all, what's all the money for? :P

Jogja: soon!

Yak, seharian ini semua orang rumah lagi in a very good mood! Apalagi kalo bukan karena adek saya yang paling kecil akhirnya dapat sekolah hehehe... :D
Dasar adek saya memang dodol.. Pas Mami pagi2 dah buka koran, ngecek daftar nama di Jawa Pos yang di-print pake size mikro itu, eh dia malah masih enak2an molor di kasur.. Setelah hampir setengah jam melototin halaman per halaman, tiba2 Mami teriak2 heboh, bikin kaget saya yang lagi kunyah-kunyah makanan di deket situ.. Ternyata nama adek saya ada di koran! Tapi karena di koran cuman ditulis nama plus kode fakultas doang (gak pake namanya), saya kan gak ngerti adek saya diterima di uni mana.. secara dia daftar dua tempat, UGM dan Unibraw Malang.. Akhirnya saya ketok2 kamar dia, maksud hati mau tanya kode fakultas itu.. tapi dianya masih asyik membabi. Yang bangun malah adek saya yang satunya dan dia malah bilang, "De'e wes tau kok.. Ketrima ndek UGM, wong tadi malem wes ngecek!" Pantes aja enak2an molor gitu.. XD

Sesorean ini, dia jadi bahan ledekan orang satu rumah.. Tapi dasar adek saya yang paling kecil itu memang kurang ekspresif kalem, jadinya dia ketawa2 biasa doang, gak heboh.. Yang paling heboh? Ya cicinya yang berisik cantik ini dong hahaha... udah sibuk mengkhayal abis bakalan bisa sering2 travelling ke Jogja hahaha... Gak usah bayar akomodasi (ya iya, yang bayar duit sewanya kan emak lo, bego..), tinggal numpang bobok di tempat dia aja hihihi.. Hemat kan? Asik asik asik.. :P Bosen ah maen di Surabaya melulu.. Ntar kalo pas weekend, bisa langsung cabut ke sana deh hahaha... *mengkhayalll.....* xD
Minggu depan kayaknya dia kudu berangkat ke sana buat ngurus pendaftaran ulang. Saya gak tau ikut atau enggak. Soalnya kalo cuman daftar ulang aja kan sebentar, paling 2 hari dah pulang.. Kalo sekalian cari tempat tinggal baru deh saya ikut hehe.. Tapi kayaknya gak asik deh travelling sama mereka, bukan tipe demen kelayapan sih.. Enaknya sih ngajak teman jalan2 bareng gitu.. yah, nanti dipikirkan lagi.. Toh bakal sering ke sana kan? Kekekeke~~

hello

Wassup fellas!!! :D

After uploading some pictures from Prita and Ardi's wedding (piccies are available in facebook acc), I'm now boringly waiting for World Cup final match between Netherlands and Spain. Netherlands my love, please win tonight mwach mwach... :*

There's almost no interesting story for this week. Work still sucks, my knitting project is still far from finished, my photography skill doesn't improve as well =.= Grr... photographing people is very difficult yeah?? Anyone knows how NOT to make portraits look like common PnS camera's shot?? I want to make pictures that wow the viewers haha.. xP
Been an illegal (doh) photographer of friend's weddings with Harry has made me tempted to get an external flash, but not sure yet, I don't know it's that necessary for basically I'm a big fan of natural lights hehe.. but seeing him so convenient taking pictures while I'm abusing my camera's ISO system, built-in flash, and still the picture outcomes aren't nice, it's like.... sigh, I want that damn speedlite hahahaha... xD Also want a new lens after seeing Frendy got a 135mm f2 L lens! Woh, an L lens I also want ahhh!!! Hahaha...

Ah, impulsive buying. I need to master my current gear first before adding more.... *repeating these words to help me resist the buying urge*


Mental note: next time will find longer dresses for easy squatting while taking pictures.. =.="

sumpek

Gilaaaaaaaaa... Lama-lama saya bisa gila kerja di sini.. Tiap hari kayak psywar terus2an, apalagi punya perawat bermulut cablak *mentolo ngaploki* Duh, baru sekali ini lo liat perawat trus bawaannya langsung pengen ngejahit tuh mulut. Perawat2 saya di tempat sebelumnya itu bener2 bawaan perawat, gak kebanyakan mulut, gak berisik, gak gatel. Mampus.

Dah hampir sebulan kerja di sini, enjoy sedikitpun juga enggak.. Malah baru hari ke-5 saya dah pengen resign aja.. Orang2nya sih baek2 saja, kecuali dua perawat berisik itu. Tapi saya gak cocok sama sistem kerjanya. Amsyong. Capek. Jenuh. Plus, koordinatornya tuh kayak maksain kehendak, ngejar target pasien. Klinik yang lebay. Tambah lagi sering ngomong pelayanan2... Cueeehhhh. Sori ya, saya agak sensi kalo denger orang mengait-kaitkan pekerjaan dengan Tuhan dan agama. Kalo saya sih nganggep ini pekerjaan.. Gua kerja, lu bayar. Habis cerita. Gak usah pake embel2 apapun. Swt.
Saya gak suka disuruh baksos gigi. Kalo tempatnya oke sih gak masalah ya. Tapi seringkali tuh tempat yang dikunjungin gak layak, gak sanitair, gak cukup space buat naruh alat, buat pasien duduk kalo mau exo. Gila, lu kira dokter gigi kayak dokter umum? Modal stetoskop doang dah bisa kasih obat ke orang? Enak kali!  Belum lagi kalo pas ada pasien exo, pasien2 yang lain pada ngerubutin, seakan2 saya ini lagi demo apaan.. Langsung pengen ngusir deh! Tapi paling utama ya, saya gak bisa ngasih tindakan pake alat yang cuman dicelup NaOCl dan alkohol. Gila, exo itu kan termasuk minor surgery seh, dodol???!!! Mau transfer penyakit ya???? Mending saya gak usah kerja sekalian.. Sekarang balikin lagi, katanya pelayanan, tapi kalo malah nular2in penyakit apa gak bullshit itu? Saya sendiri kalo jadi pasien, ya gak mau digitukan... sudah gak punya duit, berharap dapat pengobatan gratis, eh malah bonus penyakit baru!! Emoh yo disuruh nanggung dosanya.. Enak aja. Mending dibilang makan gaji buta. Kalo gak puas, ya silahkan cari dokter gigi lain yang bersedia melakukan itu! 

Asli, dah pengen resign bolak-balik. Kalo nemu tempat yang lebih baik, saya pasti langsung cao dah. Kemarin lusa, klinik giginya dah fully-installed... Bulan depan saya dan dokter gigi satunya bisa gantian jaga klinik dan ikut baksos. Liat ntar deh, bisa enjoy apa gak di kliniknya. Kalo sama aja, duh.. mboh wes.

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Saking kesalnya sampe gak tau mau nulis apa.

Doh!!! Mboh lah yo... Buenci buenci buenciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....... Kenapa harus berurusan dengan orang macam begituuuu???!! Totally a freakk, a kind of person who should be bullied in highschool not because he's weak and powerless but because he's fully annoying so he deserves it!!!

Crap.

OMFG I feel soooo much irritated!!!

Dan sekarang saya jadi mangkel sama semuanya!!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crappy mood

I don't like youuuuuuuuuuu.....

Oh please, shut up your mouth.. I don't care if you loooovvveee to talk as gossipy as a woman, but not in front of your professional subordinates oh puhleasseee don't do it ZOMFG.. =.="" You've also been acting weird since I don't know when and that irritates me as much as I see a cockroach crawling under my bed.

sorry :(

It's not that I want to be rude.. It's just that I can't explain it to you without being emo especially because you already have your judgement set in your head and the way you talk to me is kinda offensive. So I just cut it off, for simplicity's sake.. It's my choice and I don't like people interfere with my decision, I think you already know that.

I am sorry if I hurt you. I really am.

random updates

Today feels so weird.. I made two mistakes on facebook. The first one, I sent a happy birthday message to a friend whose birthday was still on May 13. Then I congratulated a senior for having a baby son whilst the baby was still in the womb! My gawwddd... =.=

Anyway, I got a special request from Anne. Few days back we caught up on msn and we were talking about this post. She asked me to write more about our high school stories here.. So well, I went to look up for something on my diaries but I ended up giggling non-stop-ly reading story after story.. I didn't always remember interesting moments during that time so I often stopped reading just to memorize whether it really had happened or not.. And my dear girl, I know I promised you I'd write a lot but now I am really not sure since most all of stories are super embarrassing, tacky, scandalous, rebellious, and involves a lot of our puppy loves haha.. I almost felt ashamed I was like that during most of my high school year, but everyone in has their own embarrassing high school story, right?? *please nod head*

The graduation ceremony is coming closer!! It's on May 20 btw, but I don't feel as excited as normal students do. Heaven knows it takes a bloody looooooooooonnnnnnggggggggggg way to go and I'm tired of waiting already. I've had the kebaya custom made cos I can't wear any common-cut kebaya as my torso is long and straight and they make me look like a spring roll. I'm gonna do make up by myself and perhaps ask a mom's friend to help me with the hair. I don't book a photo studio to shoot a family portrait on my grad's day. Grace suggested me to bring along a photographer (like she did), but I don't think I'll do that. I think I'll just bring along my IXUS 200 IS and take a lot of pictures with my friends and my parents and then photoshop 'em later haha... Told you I'm not excited with the party, but I am very excited to be officially graduated as a dentist!! :P Mommy also starts nagging about my study plan but it's now only wait-and-see for me. I might have to go for plan B instead of plan A cos currently plan B is the most make-sense scenario for me (plan A needs huge amount of money and years to spend). Or, I can go for plan B while keep trying to work out my plan A. Confused?? Me too! Haha.

Choosing sucks, don't you think so?

horizon is the limit

I know life's possibility is limitless. And it drives me nuts.

tales of mamaboy

(edited some parts to make it more polite and add some more :P)

Exam is done! Pheww~ a tricky one..

And because it's over, now I can rant and talk shit about MAMABOY! That asshole has been pissing me off!!! Yeah I'm jealous la, how come I not be jealous of him? I had to re-attend the Oral Med clinic in semester 11 (cos I failed it in sem 9) and finished it 1.5 months later (mid October 2009), passed it with an A, submitted judicial request with other two classmates hoping that they permitted us to join batch 2009 graduation in November 2009... We really hoped that they granted us permission, cos classmates from Pedo clinic who submitted their requests five days prior to us were able to attend the graduation. But very disappointing, we were told that we gotta wait for more people, meant: next four months.

Nah, Mamaboy not only did he fail the same clinic, but he actually failed it twice. However, Oral Med was the only clinic he failed beside Perio. I think, he must have failed every other clinic and would not ever made to even second year of BDS life if it's not because of the 'so-called-miracles'... Do you think he is that stupid??

NO. Absolutely not. This guy is PURE DUMB!! Stupid is quite a praise, trust me..

So dumb then why I'm jealous?

Of course I'm no jealous of his brain. Comparing him with me is like comparing a first grader with Einstein!! Walao, Yessi, you're outsmarting too.. Well, the Einstein part is an exaggeration, but wait till you know him in real life you'll agree with me..

I actually believed that there is no stupid people cos each one is smart in their own way.. I also used to think that perhaps he had other talents beyond his lack of academic intelligence, but the way he brags about himself is really sickening and that makes him look 1,254,570 times more idiot!!!

Back to the topic.

Four months passing by and I was informed that this guy finally passed OM last March and he tried to submit his judicial request to be able to attend my group's graduation. His case is exactly like mine. But guess what??? They granted his request!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Plus, they let him join the exam too~~~~ The last date of application for this exam was April 20, and his judicial announcement was issued on April 22.. The rule is, in order to be eligible to apply for the licensing examination, your judicial announcement need to be issued first. In sane logical thinking, how do you think this could be possible????!!!

Life is so unfair, not?

I think my luck with fac is miserable already, but wait till you hear what I heard this morning. So surprising and left me jaw-dropped and speechless, made me want to spit out all those terrible words I've known in front of their faces!!!!!

Ohhhh, I am sooooooooo effing tempted to spit those words to Mamaboy as well, all swears and curses.... And his face makes me want to poo poo, so swearing in front of him will definitely make me feel much better.. :S

Oh gawdddd, let me free oh.. let me free from this insane place!!!

Just yesterday I even wanted to vomit out after hearing their speech.. How come they expect us to be loyal to them while they're treating us like shit? I don't know what happens in other places, each must have flaws... but bullying your students are just wrong! What is a school without students?? You also need us! Treat others the way you want others treat you.. Respect for respect. (of course this doesn't apply to Mamaboy..)

(take deep breath)

Aside from my hatred to him, to let him graduate and grant him a 'dentist' title are very pathetic.

Mamaboy can not extract teeth

Mamaboy can not prep teeth

Mamaboy can not do proper restorations

Mamaboy do not know what pulpitis is (asked him two years ago in Ortho)

Don't even try to question him about biofilm, cos he might answer it's a new form of pornography...

Or even rubber dam, cos he might mistake it as a sex toy..

PLAIN RIDICULOUS!!

neighbor's grass is always greener

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dead bored.

Life after graduation is sooooo boring man! Or perhaps, it only transforms into a new way but I just don't like it! I don't like how I can not meet my friends, talk with them, go out with them as easy as I used to be. Of course it's not my friends' fault la.. I also know it's very normal, people are growing up and living their own business. I just don't get used to it. Yet.

After reading Immilia's post today, I feel we humans are kinda funny.

When we are single...

we are free to do anything we want, plan anything we like to do, go anywhere without anybody's concern.